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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
trying so hard
i'vecertainlywastedquitealotoftimeinmylife,thinkingallthoseuncessary andunanswerablequestions. wheneverimetthesamemistake,iwouldgrievedandcried. thenmyheartwillmumbledtome,tolearnmylesson. itoldmyheartthatiwilllearnmylessonandwillnotrepeatthesamemistake. BUTFUCK! thenagainimetthesamemistakeoverandoveragain! thisfeelingissoshitty! itriedtogetnewlife.itriedtomoveon ievengotmyselfnotlikingguys!LIKEWTF! ievenaskedmyselfdoihavetoresorttothisway. partofmeisdyingyetimstillholdingcauseidonttofallsoeasily. wheneveritrytoforget,thesamethingwillcomebacktohauntme. ilookedsofuckingpatheticandcoward. whycantijustgetafuckingnewlife. nowimtypingoutmyfeelings feelingsonakedaboutmyself. imtryingtoplanwhattodoforwednesday. planninghowtolivemylifehappily iclosedmyeyesisawdimlight iwalkedandwalked iwanttoreachthatlight butsomehowthelightkeptmovingbackwards. andnowimstillthinking |