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is it predestined or we create our own destiny?
choose either one, we still have to suffer anyway.
sufffer why everything is already planned.
OR
suffer why we make harsh decisions and regret after that.

i find it ridiculous why humans will regret after making decisions in impluse
even myself will regret too.
ppl say don make decisions in impluse, you will regret in the end.
true enough but
unfortunately we still do that.
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1.some ppl able to hide themselves well forever.
no one will know what they think or feel
2.others cant hide themselves well
so they pretend to be happy and crazy but crying inside
3.while some ppl are straightforward.
they don do hide & seek games.

Are you 1 , 2 OR 3??
im 2.
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if i have a chance, i would start all over again.
then make sure i wouldnt get myself in this state.
doubt i have this chance.
will it be good or bad idea to loss my memories?


hmmx anyway, will some1 die from coughing too much?
cos im coughing like no body's businness.
medicine wont work.
not gg waste mine or parents $$ to see doctor.
cos the F***ing heater in the bathroom spoil, cost a bomb to buy new one.