afternoon went out with kristi to watch "Shrek 3" at tampiness mall. i have not go out watching movie for so long haha. always go out with laogong to watch movie, but now seldom go out with him le. i got tight schedule for myself, working at NTU, then latet the to UOB bank to work as school attachments then NDP training. haha.. loads of things to do , no time to think other things.

"shrek 3" was funny and nice. good show recommded to watch with bunch of besties. haha...


me and kristi are going to buy skinny pants which we both wanted for so long haha, so we agreed on next tuesday after my interview at UOB bank at Toa Payoh, we can go down to bugis and buy clothes haha!!


broiing tnl got work, hmmx my colleagues sure prepared alot of tagging for me!!!
i;m gonna be dead shit !! I HATE TAGGING !!!!

I HATE MYSELF!!


SO HATE THAT I DESPISE MYSELF!!


I FEEL UGLY!!


I AM CRAZY!!!


I DON DESERVE ANYTHING AT ALLL!!


I SHOULD BE ALONE !!


I HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE


IT MY FAULT THINGS TURN OUT THIS WAY !!!!



RACHEL YOU ARE JUST STUPID,
SERVE YOU RIGHT.

REMAIN REMORSEFUL!!!

Cai Min You "我可以"



寄 没有地址得信
这样得情绪 有种距离
你 放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你得背景 有我爱你~
我可以 陪你去看星星 不用再多说明 我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再 1 次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽 是因为你
情 没有地址得信
这样的情绪 有种距离
你 放著谁得歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下的好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 他真的不容易
在你得背景 有我爱你
我可以 陪你去看星星 不用多说明
我就要和你在一起 我不想又在一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽 是因为你
我可以 陪你去看星星 不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起 我不想 又再ㄧ次和你分离
我多麼想每一次得美丽 是



Redwan Ali "would you be there"




If I were blue
would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me
let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good
would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me
would you run with me
And never look back

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away
Would you be there...

if i am away
would you stil think of me
and wish that you could hold me now, ~hold me now~
and would you die for me
would you run with me
all the way

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
to kiss my pain away
would u be there...

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
to kiss my pain away
would u be there..

i doubt no one will see my blog bah..
that will be better.
have put a false image for myself?? creating an illusion for myself, doesnt exist at all.
i just want go back to the past amend all the things that i have done.
i should have more courage i should have.. now it all "i should have"

i wasnt the me, i was just pretending to be me that all..
my eyes seeing double, my body slowly became numb.

was that karma?

我快要不行了, 真真的我在哪里???

Rihanna "Umbrella"


lyrics: at
http://www.lyricsbox.com/rihanna-lyrics-umbrella-8dcjktk.html

i just hate thoese ppl!!! those ppl who share the same staff as me. those IT ppl. they are so selfish, and gossippers!!! just irritates me, and there is one woman, she is pregnant, she kept sighing and giving those weird sounds!!! pregnant very big arh!!!
hmmxx!!!!

SUCKZ TO work with ppl like this in the future, lucky i am just working part time ... and i not doing IT stuff !! i will die !!!

hmmxx can you believe that i did not do a single task at work. and i sat the whole day watching drama, surfing the net, eat lunch, going toilet, waiting time to pass. just sit there for like seven

then because i got alot of SPARE time so i went to friendster to view fren's profile and searching for primary schoolmates (Chong Li PRIMAry school)
hmmxx quite funny to see all grown up le



and i will be going camp sooonn i am so excited






it just a nightmare. soon i will wake up & be in reality...

ARGH!! i checked my stopover my school internal attachments, i am being put to CSC(Customer service Centre) don what the hell is that shit???!!!!

hmmmx separated from my fren, sad sad she being posted to ELDC.. hahaha

this is really a nightmare!! No it is not true!!

i got to wake up!!

you look normal just like anyone, but i noe that you are crying sadly. you wish there was a miracle who can help you through. you are looking for somthing that you always wanted.
once you were being loved like a innocent child but now i noe that you feel like you are a abandon small creature who wish to be loved again. you miss the person who once give you a contented yet sinful happiness. but now you are in confusion, stuck in the middle of highway thinking a perfect way out.

but how you wish that these were just a nightmare, wish everything was just a dream.
i noe you are thinking whether you are still being loved or just waiting for the final outcome.

i noe you are scared, helpless, lonely. your days seems to past so slowly. the torture, e tears, e time is tearing your heart apart.

you go to bed every night with your heart hung up so high, sorrows choking your throat, eyes become sored.

it just a nightmare, everything is just ur illusions only.

i noe you wish that you don have a heart, so you will not feel so pain.

bahaha...i am here to post entries again!! hmmxx these days i hav been working in NTU.hmmxx quite realx actually but the jobs goven to me are tedious!! is really different working in industry. there office politics, office gossip, office rumours, blah blah anything. hmmxx it shows the evil side of ppl bahaha.. my desk area is at the general office i work as receptionist.. plus 2 other senior who has work here for donkey years. One is transferring soon and i will take over her job SOON . lucky i work as part time Only!!! those IT old guys share the same office with us. they look free lor click and clicking their mouse Non-stop. don noe what they are doing!!

everyday i have to chase bus like bull, and esp morning and after work hour ppl rushing home... wa really hectic, you to fight for seats, pack like sardine.. bahaha.....
really boring, travelled from hougang to boon lay which is so far away.. i might as well go JB to work!! bahaha...


now i am waiting time to pass, boring i am going to sleeep sooooooOOOOOOOn zzzzZZZZZZ......

lADIES & gENTLEMENS.... BOYS AND GIRLS..mY DEAR FRENS AND Love ones!!!!! i MAYBE closing the blog soonnn...

I say"MAYBE" not "really"
jsust a consideration....


after much think, i think is weird telling ppl what you are doing or thinking.... no offence to those ppl who blog ok!!!IT JUST MY THOUGHT I REPEAT!!! IT JUST A THOUGHT!!!!



I THINK FRIENDSTER SHOULD BE ENOUGH FOR ME !!!!!!!!!1

BAHAHAHA....

ytd(wednesday) finish work early, then rush to school for my CCA General meeting !!! haha i ran like hell, A team is going to have camping in school on 8,9,10 of june!!!! actually i did not want to go, but the seniors say that it is going to be interesting so i May be going.. haha see whether pooja want to go a not!!! it is secret between us.... 60% want to go 40% still considering... should i go??? hmmmxxx is a great opportunity to bond together, can know more friendsss.. BAAhhhhh...

and president of A team told us that we are going the make our personalized blazer!!! the tailor is coming to our schoool to take our measurements and we only have to pay aboouot 20% of the money... i am so excited!!! But the main problem is that we don noe what colour to choose for our blazer, becos our principal doesnt like dark or bright colours, so we only can choose colours like "grey, brown, green" this colours are boring !!! LoL...

e seniors also told uS that the NDP Training will be on Saturday all the way to August!! that mean i cant go out with laogong le... =( we already rarely go out le, hmxx is going to be a tough one for me... =(

well i am going to work leeeee

moody & tired...=( feel like sleeping. think i am starting to have depression bahaha...
do data entry for the new computers for e 4 IT labs !! my eyes can go blind! and Bloody hell.
i wrote 0(zero) and "o" . now doing data entry i cant differentiate the 2 stupid "CIRCLE" !!! OMG...i need to go back to e IT labs to double check. (each room has 28 multiply 4 labs= 112 computers)
feel like crying, days seems to be endless and i am stuck somewhere dark..

going back to school tml after my work.. for my cca General meeting.
the person called me ytd and told me "You must have ur full commitment if you are joining the NDP training session and you cant miss more than 2 sessions..." ya ya... i will drag myself to the training !! she told me that training will be on saturday, my heart ache when i heard that, cos i cant go out with him. i miss him so much. have not see him for months i guess. so worry that our relationship willl be "spoiled" by me!

going to doze off soon... that all i can think for today...
bye bye

haha..currently mood is hungry, and thinking whether i slhd set up a shopping blog to sell my items...

i got so many bags, books pack around my house!!! I need to find a way to sell all this stuffS!!!! omg!! anyone who is interested(ALots clothes, bags or books) to also create a shopping blog. do tell me.... Thank you very much... Lol...

hmmxx i shall go home and check what things i can selll online..

Frens or my love ones who see this Entry, please give me some name that i can name for my Shopping blog..comment on e tagboard!!
Easy to rmb de.. LOl
Thanks you !!!!!!

i think i might really create a shopping blog it sounds fun!!! haha

second entry on 21 may 2007...
got a call from A-team ( my cca) they said that i pass my interview!!! woho!!! hahaxxx i am joining this year NDP! heexx i am so so so excited, i am wondering what are going to do... =) hahaxxx but sadly i not for the camp for A team. cos got work.. =(
but i can purchase the camp shirt!!! hhaha only 5 dollars....

and i am so sleepy today, got time i will just dozed off like log... Muahahass....
ohh tml going work again... wish time can pass faster...

So many worries and problemss hmmxxx waish i can escape !!!

Monday Blues....reach office early,mum make burger for my breakfast!!! heexx i ate in the office !!! YUmmy yummy... then i went to my cousin office to take things for my mum. lOL i am the messenger for my mum & aunt!!!
then after that i help my cousin photocopy papers.. and suddenly an A3 size paper get stuck in the machine... i pull to hard, i tear a small piece. OOOPsy.... lol then i get my colleague to help me!!!LOL

afternoon me and my cousin went for lunch.. i ate yong tau foo... Yeekksss...
FOR my drink... heexx is soursop+honeydew...sound weird bah..but it taste nice!!! OMG,, sweet and sour!!! and somemore the auntie put aLOT of soursop fruit in my drink!!!!yummy.....

going home soonnnn yeah!!! i cant wait to rush home!!! i feel sleppy today even i slept early ytd night LOL

hmmxxx second entry for 20 may 2007. watching "it started with a kiss episode 12" i am soo emotion now lol after watching so many episodes.

love is always a complicating thing to understand. many had been through several relationship but others they never. BUT they always have the common problem. is really funny. In that drama, e lead gal always "evolving" around the guy that she has been in love for 2 years!! she love tat guy so much that she can actually do silly things.. Love can be so ARgh i don noe how to describe.

some prefer to be in their dreamland thinking abt their prince/princess, someone prefer to be realistic, find a bf/gf and started a relation.
there are pros and cons, you can decide urself...

to me, i think there is A NO NO perfect reationship..... i don noe i just think way don ask me..
sometimes is TOO good or TOO bad to be true.
some work hard to have a perfect relationship others wait for e relationship to be perfect

lol....just a thought..=)

my first entry for the day 20 may 2007... ytd went out to hougang with my family members. me and sister ate the $2.30 chicken rice at the hawker centre near the shop & save and pool club. my parents ate malay rice.. haha..... the chicken rice was yummy i give 3 stars out of 5. =)

then we went harvey norman to see if they sell wireless card. then we bought the wireless G USB adpater at $49. we went and install haha SUCESSS!!! and dl the AVG free edition anti-virus. haha.... want to noe the website heexxx ask me!!! Lol...

i am so happy that our hse desktop finally can use. my dad bought on 2002 and tio virus and repair it since then we have been using it. sometimes my sis used to play games.. THAT ALL.....
NOw after 5 years... finally this com can be in good use. !! i am so happy.. and my daad can use the internet le...

welll weellll good Boriingg saturday...camp at home to watch taiwanese drama "it started with a kiss". yes yes .. this drama is like centuries ago but i never watch it b4. ytd(friday) me and sister stay until 3 am, we watched 6 episode in one shot. haha... love drama(touching, lovely, sweet and sad too.) i like to watch drama that are not long winded, they just aim and chop and nagging here & there. give 4 stars out of 5. =)

my current mood now is + borinngg+sleepy.. OMG.. i need to kick some "butt"!!!!!

now i have to wait for time to past, going jogging at evening.... PLEASE don Rain!!! zzzZZZZ.... my eyes are closing soonn.... !!!!!

yeah... great news this year NDP will be staged at Marina bay on floating Platform

Astract from Channel News Asia:
"The stage is set for NDP 2007 - and the entire show will be over water. "

the theme for this year NDP is "City of Possibilities" ... sounds cool to me..
NDP will be not boring to me anymore. Plus my school cca allow us to join the NDP woho.... can get free goodie bags and tickets !!!! haha ... that all folks

my current mood this afternoon, tired and hungry and bit sad.
my colleague ask me to help her do data entry for the Asst Prof and Prof.. so i did. then i must search info from the school websites, then all the division info is all over the place not according then i never search properly so i never type the info into the excel. then BLOODY HELL when i pass the file to my colleague, she check through the file and find mistAKE!!!!! Like so many MISTAKE....feel like dying in her room... FEEL SO BAD....haixx think she will not ask me do work for her liao haha

and now i am so hungry hungry but i don feel like eating .... no moood to eatt....

=(

at last i can relax.. what a tiring day. I really have to cherish my poly life now.. cos when i graduate i will either go uni to continue my studies OR i will go and work... i don like working life staff politics, blah blah blah. Boring -_-" i cant wait to quickly end this month and go back to school and meet my buddies!! =)

wish time can past faster for this month lol.... i cant wait for saturday can go sentosa with my sister yeah.. =) i am going to take alot of photos (it my sister wants !! ) and wear my new cap.. weexx..

hmmxx well that all folks bye bye

hahaxxx my second entries on the same day 17 may...
today shredded alot of papers, o love shredding papers lol... than colleague ask me to change the name tag for thr computers room at level 3. Wa piang the name tags are so dusty OMG.. need to use screw driver to "open" the name tags !!!! OMG.... tough sia......
now i must wait for my colleague to assign me jobs liao ....

BORIINGG....

Water & Whisky mAgic


Ghost Bill



"water" bed


haha... got nothing to do so i went youtube to see some videos.. and i found some "interesting vidoes" haha..... eNJOY...heexxxx

finish first day of work..... busy like little ant.. hahaha.. and staff room was damn quite they need some music... lol.. !!!! do tagging new computers, filing data, editing word documents hohoxxx. not fun... during lunch time rush to Jurong Point to buy slippers cos my new shoes are killing, i got blisters on foot and it everywhere!! OMG!!

finally, i can go home, sleeping like a dead in the MRT ... wahaha.... then alight at YIO chu Kang, take 72, while traveling there was one lady (not mention her race, don want to be racist) she was sitting at the back in the double deck bus, she keep talkin NON-STOP.. from the interchange all the way to block 918!!! she kept blahhingg about her frens and kept complaining.. OMG.... i really want to "straggle" her!!!

i went jogging at stadium after reach home , feels good to jog during night time haha...

hmmxx thats all folks...

hahaha my first day of work...... i thought i was going to be late but lucky i manage to rush only late by few minutes haha...... do filing and tagging info for the new computers. those DELL computer are brand new... like have not see computer before haha su ku me..... loL... met my cousin haha..she become more pretty le and lady like haha.....

and also i have not been to jurong for long and when i reach the MRT station.. wo.. the interchange was at the other side haha...a temporarily bus interchange..... and serve me right , i wear my new shoes today and i GOT blisters!!! BlooDY HELL...

haha my latest hairstyle.... don noe what to comment ..lol
but now i am quite getting use to it le haha......
tml i going work le..must wake up same time as my sister..... i need to sit in the MRT for about an hour OMG!!!!
never mind i am going to work towards getting my salary!!!!!!!!
hope tml goes well smoothly hahahahaa

and at last i have got my internet ...now i can go msn everyday!!!! woho!!!! =)

saturday 5 may 2007 me, hua and sis went to bugis.. haha cos i want shopping.. haha we went eat at mos then there was one auntie who kept walking around as if she was waiting for someone. hahah she look weird haha .... then we went to OG and i bought pair of long jeans which i wanted for so long. haha at 40% discount and i bought a belt at bugis street for $10. my shopping was so fast haha then we went bugis street and stroll and went to second level.. we will be thrsty so we went in to the "teenage cafe" (forget the name) we order 3 iced cappo, when we drink it it was bitter OMG ...... our face all shrink haha esp mine haha....... then we order the mexican wings... it sound nice at first but when e food arrive the pathetic wings so so sosossoosso small and was cut into half!!!!!!!!!!! there were only HALF chicken wings!!!! but overalll is was quite nice lar....prices stated in the menu is reasonable lol.......

sunday 6 may 2007 me, jing, kris and meng went VIVOcity haha we had gathering....i have see them for so long le!!!! we update yourseld how we have been and thinhs happening !!!!!!
then we went compass point.. and to kiddy place ask for job... and they say ronald and cliston were working there.

monday 7 may ... i bought thumbdrive


Wednesday 9 may 2007 haha new entry again..... bloody boring comin g to school everyday... hahah but lucky i went to gym this morning if not no time to exercise le..
today stay back in school until very plus cos i want to join our school A TEAM club so that meeting start at 6 pm so i have to wait in school until 6 pm lor haha

ytd MSN with my cousin who is working at NTU haha.. ask her for job. she saY she might have job for me ....... HOPE she can help me!!!!!! i am LOOKING FOR JOB ..
hmmxx i wanted to go interview for sales assistant in Giordano but due to the tight schedule for the project so i cant go have to wait for sock hua, go with her......

and laogong went watch spiderman lor... hmmxx waiting to watch with him but he went to watch with his frens!!!!!! =( SO SAD ...... and ytd never reply back my msg !!!! lol
never mind haha ........

and go home needd to type out the Customer service script for the role play and presentation on Tuesday.....
just bare for 4 more days ... after that 2 days of presentation then i can relax le.... lol
and i told my sis that we 2 can go sentosa together haha have crazy sister outing day YEAH !!!!i cant wait for that day .......


well that all folkss
byebye

BOring i am doing project which i hate alot !!!! i rather have 5 ICA than having 1 project!!!! that how much i hate PROJECTS!!!!
but i am working with nice ppl who are my frens hahhaha.. they are good =)
hope we can finish on time hahaahha cos there seem to be alot of things to be done.... argh....

PLus i am looking for job desperately argh argh argh !!!!!!! i send e mails, sign up for my school jobportal, search jobs frm websites and asking frens for lobang.. BUT i cant find any!!!! everything is hanging in the air...... SOBS SOBS !!!

Mother's day coming hahaha going take mum and give her a treat hahahahahahahaha

ARGH... wish i can stay at home and slack... lol so boring coming to school everyday.....


hmmxxx.. bye bye

the lyrics::

yeah yeah yeah !!!! FINISHED MY ROLE PLAY!!!! aND the teacher said that our script is creative and it was nice!!!! hahahahahah.... yes!!!!! i can relax now ................. hahahahahaha

YEAH!!!! fINISHED my test!!!! wo hoo hoo..... tml going have role play for Customer service subject !!! hahahaa so excited.... and hope that i can get through the interview smoothly for the job application for Giordano.....hahaah.....
and my fren got labvang and you will not believe what is it !!! hahahahahahah shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

wow i am going mad.... bye bye ebye e